It's good to self-reflect and learn and so on, but all in moderation. Wallowing in the past doesn't help with anything.

[She's not sounding so bitter or lost here, but rather - sober. It's not something she really wants to discuss, subject changes are much better.]

So you do still have blood vessels in there. I know if something cuts into my toe... claw, things too much I hurt and there's blood, but that doesn't seem to be so much the case with my hands.

[She exhales through her nose, shakes her head.]

These things don't always make sense. At least none of me is something weird and abstract, like light or shadow, or vapor.